Friday, March 9, 2012

No Way Out

I am in a bit of a depression. I have been since my Mom was diagnosed with terminal cancer last June.
She has spent all but 15 days of this year in a hospital and has endured two major surgeries. And she still has cancer.
Her Dr. told her that there is nothing else they can do for her.
I think she goes home today.
I feel like I am about to get on a terrifying ride and there is no way out of it. I know most people love their mothers but my Mom and I are very close. She is like my best friend. I think my brothers feel the same way about her. I may not have had a perfect childhood but God blessed me with an incredible mom. I am not ready to say Goodbye.


lizzie said...

Sorry you feel so bad. My mother and I never had a good relationship and looking after her in her final years was depressing and I felt awful guilt when she died but never missed her; just felt relief.
It is great you have a daughter to be close with.

Rhonda said...

I am so sorry! it was not that long ago you lost your dad too?
you must get through it, your children need you now more than ever. but I am sorry for so much pain.
Bless you.

Anonymous said...

I have quietly followed your blog for a few years, and want you to know that I am praying for God's peace for you and your mom.

Dilem*mama said...

big hug.